May 29, 2005

Life-Oh-Life

Less than a month and i will finish final exams, now am starting to revise some, i got 12 days till the first final exam, which is Separation-2, i had some minor revision for it, and am planning to make the last 4 days a SEPS days, Separation-2 ONLY days, then after seps, Management, which i have no idea why am studying it, then Mathematical Modelling-2, then the most Annoying Subject, PARTICLE TECHNOLOGY, i hope i do well, and go back to kuwait intime :P about going back.... i dont know really, how will i live there without SUPERFAST INTERNET!? :Pi honestly dont think am coming back, or... maybe i come back for a month and back to the uk as soon as possible, u are probably saying " wtf, u are one lonely man " well yah, who cares? :D
So far am studying and hoping to finish, since after the exams, am going to raid all PC games stores and get my 3 WANTED games, at the 23rd of June! Am going to spend about 100 pounds worth of PC games! what games u wondernig? well, HERE
1. Battle Field 2 -PC
2. Grand Theft Auto SA -PC
3. Half-Life 2 -PC
why half life 2 now? well, i wanted it a long time ago, and i never got it, i hope the expansion will be released by the time i finish my exams, and am REALLY waiting for the ULTIMATE GAME that will SHAKE the VERY foundation OF THE GAMING WORLD! , am still waiting! AND WAITING!, are you wondering which game am talking about?
YOU Guessed it RIGHT, well i bet u dont even know wtf am talking about huh? since all the best games i just stated up there, BF2/GTA:SA/HL2, well all these games are wonderfull and very well done, BF2 i will say it will have its moment and will die very quickly like BF-Vietnam and its old successor, GTA:SA will give me a hell of a great time! i love all GTAs and am expecting this to be EVEN cooler, HL2? YES one of the greatest games ever created the history of PC-GAMES, i played it and finished it, but i want the new expansion now, beside i want to try out the CS-Source everyone is enojoying so much :P, but what about that certain game that no one seems to remember, GUYS, The most enjoyable game i ever had, ofcourse dont count HL2 / C&C;games , because those were TOP OF THE TOP, the game that will make me EVEN cancel my going back to kuwait, , ,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,
B L A C K & W H I T E 2
this game going to be SOOO Awesome! B&W2 will own every STG game ever! Trust me!!! this game will rule! check out the site!
http://www.lionhead.com/bw2/index.html
am really looking forward to this game, Lionhead! GOODLUCK! i will be the FIRST to buy it!!!!
.. guys, WoW still rule.
i dont know if u guys having exams or not, but!
GOOD LUCK with your EXAMS! , REMEMBER! always remember that After all the hard work! there must be a result! dont worry!, Study! and Ask allah for his help! and you will win!, Ah! the smell of Success! , WHERE ARE MY GAMES GODDAMN IT!

Posted by snakeam at 08:24 PM | Comments (0)

May 25, 2005

Hate

Did you ever Hate someone that you really want to brutally hit him, not to make him/her die yet, u just want to make them suffer as much as you possibly can, i do, i have alot of people in my hate list, i can generate a 100 meter long list of hated people within my life, i really dont want to kill them, but i do want to make them suffer for a long, a very long, time, why? because they deserve to be! , why do i have that amount of hate? well, only people that get this hate is because they deserve to have it, example a person in highschool, ignorance and a bastard, if i was back in highschool again, i would corrupt his worthless life and make him suffer for all eternity, some people will know whom am talking about, but seriously, who do you hate? teachers? well, some yes, but some are great people!, lets look at it in the bright side, there are more good teachers than bad teachers which is a good thing, what about co-workers? i used to work in a company, and i hated, EVERY SINGLE PERSON there, expect for the supervisor which was a good person, he tested my patients but thank god he didn't go too far, why do i have that amount of hate toward some people? i can hate someone, for a looooooooooong time, but when this person comes back to apologise OR i see him in person, i get this release feeling of " Let go " i hated and hated that person for so long, now when i saw him, this what i feel? where did all my hate disappear? how come am so friendly now? is it because am weak hearted? or is it that maybe because i felt sorry for hating that person for ever so long? but., maybe i didn't hate him in the beginning? maybe its because of some circumstances that i hate that person, but now since everything has changed, my heart just opened up, and i let all my hate just fade away? isn't that a bit stupid? wasted all that time cursing that person, but still, i have some hate towards some people that still on fire, i cannot let it go, some people's hate faded, but this person didn't, i think thats what i call HATE, i've seen alot of topics talking about love and crap, what about hate? Anger? how do you describe it? once you see a person that you hate the most, whats your reflections? will you start attacking? or will you let go? will you re-consider? or will you just brutally hit with all your might? did you ever stop at that moment and think? when your hate just reaches its maximum and you want to burst out, did you stop... grasp that moment, why am i so angry?... cant hold it back any longer... i want to release all this anger into that person.... but.... why wasting all that energy now? what good will it have once you hit that person? will you be releaved? .. answer. no. , will you be avenged? answer. no. will it make you feel big toward the people who are watching? answer.. never.
i want to know.. what people think, at the moment of anger. what are you thinking when you about to start a fight? listen to the drums of your heart beat, what does it say? fear or strenght?

wtf am talking about? i need to study! -_-;

Posted by snakeam at 08:42 PM | Comments (1)