S.N.K.E.

Hate

Did you ever Hate someone that you really want to brutally hit him, not to make him/her die yet, u just want to make them suffer as much as you possibly can, i do, i have alot of people in my hate list, i can generate a 100 meter long list of hated people within my life, i really dont want to kill them, but i do want to make them suffer for a long, a very long, time, why? because they deserve to be! , why do i have that amount of hate? well, only people that get this hate is because they deserve to have it, example a person in highschool, ignorance and a bastard, if i was back in highschool again, i would corrupt his worthless life and make him suffer for all eternity, some people will know whom am talking about, but seriously, who do you hate? teachers? well, some yes, but some are great people!, lets look at it in the bright side, there are more good teachers than bad teachers which is a good thing, what about co-workers? i used to work in a company, and i hated, EVERY SINGLE PERSON there, expect for the supervisor which was a good person, he tested my patients but thank god he didn't go too far, why do i have that amount of hate toward some people? i can hate someone, for a looooooooooong time, but when this person comes back to apologise OR i see him in person, i get this release feeling of " Let go " i hated and hated that person for so long, now when i saw him, this what i feel? where did all my hate disappear? how come am so friendly now? is it because am weak hearted? or is it that maybe because i felt sorry for hating that person for ever so long? but., maybe i didn't hate him in the beginning? maybe its because of some circumstances that i hate that person, but now since everything has changed, my heart just opened up, and i let all my hate just fade away? isn't that a bit stupid? wasted all that time cursing that person, but still, i have some hate towards some people that still on fire, i cannot let it go, some people's hate faded, but this person didn't, i think thats what i call HATE, i've seen alot of topics talking about love and crap, what about hate? Anger? how do you describe it? once you see a person that you hate the most, whats your reflections? will you start attacking? or will you let go? will you re-consider? or will you just brutally hit with all your might? did you ever stop at that moment and think? when your hate just reaches its maximum and you want to burst out, did you stop... grasp that moment, why am i so angry?... cant hold it back any longer... i want to release all this anger into that person.... but.... why wasting all that energy now? what good will it have once you hit that person? will you be releaved? .. answer. no. , will you be avenged? answer. no. will it make you feel big toward the people who are watching? answer.. never.
i want to know.. what people think, at the moment of anger. what are you thinking when you about to start a fight? listen to the drums of your heart beat, what does it say? fear or strenght?

wtf am talking about? i need to study! -_-;