S.N.K.E.

To Upgrade or to NOT to?

My God, this is so fucking bad, I was just reading through the web pages and I found that nVidia are planning on releasing their new Geforce, the G92, late this year, say Xmas, and ATI going to release their R700 Q2 2008, Now that information might be fake, but I wont be surprised to see nVidia putting up a G92 on shelves this Xmas. Just to fucking tease me and laugh at me for buying the X1950 Crossfire from ATI.

Those Fucking retards wont allow a person to rest assure that you have a powerful Video card for the next 3 years. That was the case when I got my beautiful state of the art ATI Radeon 9800 Pro.. that Video card was one of the BEST video cards I ever had. It stood long and firm throughout 3 years!, And it performed marvelously!

I had to hand it to ATI at that moment, so since I was an ATI fan after the 9800 Pro, and of course after 2 generations of video card, (2 Generations and the 9800 pro was AMAZING), I decided to finally jump! Let go of the beast! And get the next inline!

So I went on and got me an ATI X1950 XTX and its Crossfire Master card. One mistake I did was that I got a motherboard that support Crossfire in dual PCI-E but over 8x not 16x each. I should have taken the ati express chip motherboards, but no matter, it just works fine.

Now imagine, I bought the 9800 Pro, and it hold on for 3 solid years!, now I got the X1950,, CROSSFIRE, and it couldn’t handle 1 freaking year!. Now if nvidia going to release video cards yearly, say each year 1 new brand, then we going to be fucked. You may say no games benefits from these new powerful video cards, its true, but people are still buying! Hence nVidia will still be releasing!.

Why am I thinking of getting a new video card over my crossfire X1950? To be honest, I wont, ONLY if I see a game that aint working right with my current video card. So far only the lame ported Lost Planet that didn’t work right, next game that will clearly say BUY NEW VIDEO CARD is Crysis. So when crisis comes, I’ll buy it, and try it on my crossfire, if it works fine, no need for an upgrade and am still holding on with my X1950, if it works like a bitch, then its clearly time for an upgrade, I.e. waiting for the G92.

That should be fine, only crisis and newer games that will decide whether its necessary to upgrade or not, so far am not into it really, since I got he PS3 and X360 just sitting there doing nothing at all, its true am playing Ninja Gaiden Sigma, but that game is soo goddamn hard, I don’t want to be bothered by it. But I still going to play, since Rachel is soo damn HOT!

OH! Btw, I finished Oblivion! That game is nice! … though my Shadowmare is still lost. One thing I find cool is the arena. I mastered it. I killed every challenger, then I got bored and killed all the guards in the imperial city!. Was fun! Now on to other games, I might go for Overlord. Or continue ninja gaiden sigma…. Or just hope on another new game!... Heavenly Sword and Lair is due soon.. time to buy some HIGH DEFINITION GAMES!

Sucks to be me…

This Sucks so hard, I keep fucking up at work, this really turns me down, I HATE to make a mistake, specially when your trainer put a good word for you in front of everyone, noting that you are able to perform well, then you stupidly make a mistake. And everyone tries so hard to fix your mistake. This makes me really angry at myself, also makes me worried about other mistakes I will make.

This is so disappointing. I don’t like this at all, and when that happens, the thought of quitting comes in mind. Though it is just a small section am handling, it sometimes feels like am overwhelmed with stuff. Which makes it even harder to concentrate, and then the feeling of let down, and after that you try to fix it, but you are already depressed because you made the mistake in the first place. So you usually don’t tend to fix it thoroughly and it gets even worst…

Now am trying so hard to fix it, but it seem that I cannot do it, I really want to explain more, but its company secrets and I cant just say it here. But the main idea is, I fucked up and I keep fucking up. This is getting stupid, I need to get a hold on myself and WORK RIGHT. I don’t want people to cover up for my stupid mistakes. I just hope I let go of the quitting idea. Because am nothing without a job, absolutely nothing…

And I don’t want a job were I just sit there doing nothing at all, I want a job were am needed, were I can feel that am doing something that is important, and I feel that I’ve accomplished something during the first 8 hours of the day. Unlike other people I know who happily took a PS2 into their work place to play, and what was his reason? He wants his employee’s friends to come to work… and he is going to accomplish that by getting his PS2 at work so they play there…. Fuck you retard… its because of you our country still lies in ruins.

That feeling of “let down”? it happened to me while playing Ninja Gaiden Sigma on the PS3, now I can tell you exactly how I feel during work without telling any secrets.
The faster you move, the harder your attacks are, you still loss and die a horrible death, this piece of shit game kept on killing me, I cannot believe how hard this game is… the graphics are beautiful and all, but how do you expect me to play when it is so goddamn hard? All enemies block like mad, and when they hit you, each hit takes up like 20% of your entire health bar.. this is WITH MY DEFENSE BRACER ON!, imagine if I don’t have that bracer!, I would probably die in like seconds.

How dare you make this game so hard? This is on normal mode, what about hard mode? Impossible I presume?, and of course, the amazing camera work, they are concentrating the stupid camera on you and forget about the enemy, so sometimes I look at my stupid gay black spandex character and I have absolutely no fucking idea where the enemy is attacking from or how many are coming my way, I had to turn the camera manually but by that time the enemy already landed a hit or two (40% HP gone), using health potions, wops out of health.. dead.. sure you will say BLOCK, I did! I block, works fine, but they grab you and they will land a hit on you anyway!.

Its so hard, I cant believe I replayed the same level for 3 hours yesterday, I almost crashed the ps3 controller, why the fuck do you make the game so hard? I played the darkness on the ps3 and it was so smooth and nice and easy, I enjoyed every goddamn second of it, making the game hard is just plain stupid, you can put options were people can choose difficulty level,.. you did? Oh? You call that normal? That’s super fucking hard! And where is the easy option? Oh… challenging you say? Sorry, this is not challenging at all to me, its just annoying how 3 enemies hit you continuously and the moment you try to move another one attacks. Its just impossible.

I feel so defeated by this stupid game, much like the same feeling happened at work, still the game looks fine and all, but the moment I saw a fucking cyborg, I said fuck this stupid game. Ninja + cyborg? Fuck you Japanese retards. What happened to common sense?...

Well, Back to Saving emperor Martine Septim!! In OBLIVION!, oh btw, am a VAMPIRE NOW…. I have no idea what I can get out of it! BUT IT SOUNDS SO COOL!.

When I was in the TOILET!

When I was in the Toilet, I was thinking, since it was taking too goddamn long for my asshole to open up and releases the brownish not so pleasant smelling entity, now and after I gave you a disgusting introduction, I’ll jump to the point.

I got THE DARKNESS on the PS3 a week ago, and I played it within 2-3 hours a day, since I have no time really, I wake up in the morning go to work, finish up at 3pm, reaches home 3:30pm, sleep till 7pm, then play about 2-3 hours till its 11pm, then off to bed… fucking boring life.

Anyway, like I said somewhere, I don’t recall and I don’t want to waste my precious internet time to search in my fucked up blog if I said that information or not, but THE DARKNESS has absolutely NO AA, and I felt it is rendered is a LOW resolution, I might be, that damn PS3 is connected to an HD-Ready TV through an HDMI cable, so that basically sums up all the technical shit but still it shows up fucking no AA, well, that probably is because of the game and such, BUT people all over the place say that THE DARKNESS on the X360 has AA and Motion Blur. FUCK YOU SONY.

Does that mean the PS3 has no AA? I will cry so hard if it doesn’t, since AA really important to me, that’s why I love the PC, I can Force AA on worthless games like JADE EMPIRE and at least feel its good.

ANYWAY, I keep on drifting off the main topic here, I finished the Darkness, and to be honest, that game is FUN to play, its true that AA destroys most some of the fun, but that doesn’t mean its total crap. The game has a good story plot and the gameplay is somewhat unique, when I say unique, I mean it has different elements, rather than point and shoot, you can use your darkness minions to attack, or you can use your darkness snakes or demons, whatever they are, to attack too, it’s a combination of Mafia + Demon powers.

The game really took my time, I enjoyed every second, and I loved the sound track which is perfectly blended within the game atmosphere, some people would say it’s a typical FPS game, well, I’ll reply with, you don’t know jack shit about FPS, and if you even compare this to the fucking lame story plot HALO series, you deserve to die so horribly, HALO SUCKS, it’s a NORMAL FPS game with NO substance at all, you don’t dare say HALO rules, because it simply SUCK. Compare it to other amazing FPS games out there, oh, console kiddies don’t know much of FPS games, since they opened their eyes on only Halo bullshit, let me list some of the greatest FPS games

- Half Life / Half Life 2 / Half life eps1 / and so on
- Quake and its series (The Beginning of True 3D FPS!)
- Unreal and its series
- Duke Nukem 3D
- Doom and its series (The Beginning of FPS!)
- Call of Juarez (This game rules. You just don’t know how to play)
- Jedi Knight and its series (oh the old days)
- Storm Troopers (I liked that game)
- SIN

There are a lot more, but sadly these games aren’t touched by the kiddies of the console.. ohh you soo damn cute, I wish you die ever so horribly you sad bastard.

After I finished The Darkness, I decided to game on the PC, so I picked up Command & Conquer 3 since I didn’t really finish it, I was playing it and I felt that this game is kinda boring, and fast paced, I don’t really enjoy my units, the moment I create, I send to war, and expect none return, even if I manage to return a few, they will die real quickly, I guess this is the way they designed the game, but I like the old C&C were you can actually feel what the unit is doing, the only unit that makes my day is the flame tank in the NOD arsenal, I love the fire effects of it.

So like I said, I felt bored and all, and this morning in the toilet, I said, why didn’t I play Oblivion? I mean I got a decent PC to run it, why not? I remember saying something about how crappy the animation were, true. And mostly I hated the “ HERE! GO EXPLORE AND GET LOST” stuff. But am going to give it another try today. Am going to install and try it out. AGAIN. That’s what I decided to do in the toilet! Creative ha? I just wish I can go on, otherwise I’ll end up playing GRAW2 and forget about the multiplayer promise I made to some of my friends hehehe.. sorry guys! :D

Smile... And get Nothing in return!

I don’t know about you guys, but I am trying my best to smile to everyone within my work space, I greet everyone with a happy face and a big smile, though I know the inner me says “FUCKING PISS OFF YOU FUCKING RETARDS”.

Its really hard to keep up with your smile from 7am to 3pm, I tried so hard to hold it, the main problem here is that after 8 hours of holding my smile, I get off work, and put on the usual angry face, specially when I get into the car and drive back home.

I always end up tailing the cars, going over speed, and showing angry faces and gestures to people who drive slowly, I swear, someday Allah will punish me for this, I cannot hold it, I tried so hard too, it’s the fact that I keep on a fake smile through out 8 hours, that fake smile will be gone soon.

Today I almost smash my fucking co-worker’s face with my 5 years old shoes from UK. Why was I angry? Here is the deal…

One of my co-workers forgot his gate pass, you cannot enter without it, so they usually do a temporarily one, so they asked me to take his paper and go to the gate, where he is waiting, to issue his temporarily gate pass.

I noticed that the paper was signed but with no name on it, so I said he going to fill it there. I reached the gate, and there he is standing and smiling at me, I myself smiled as well and said here is your paper, fill it and give it to the security to issue your temp. gate pass, that fucktard “ SUCH A FUCKING RETARD” took the paper “BLANK” and gave it to the security!.

I was shocked, and said to myself, I think am talking to a wall. That security dude did not bother looking and pointed to the other building, typical Kuwaiti security for you there. The idiot took the paper and headed toward the building, I went after him saying, Fill the damn paper, FILL THE DAMN PAPER. And he happily replied, they will fill it for me.

Ok, call me an idiot. But since when security people fill out your fucking form? And how the hell will they know your name? Your social ID? Your Title… Your.. oh you got my point.
So, I went silent since he just ignored me, so I will fucking ignore him, the security officer took the paper and said to him. This is Really dangerous! How dare you give me a blank paper and its SIGNED! Do you know what will happen if this goes into the wrong hands….

Of course at that moment I wanted to fucking stick my company car keys into his fucking eyes and piss in his ears for ignoring me, Fucking retard… so out of respect, I told him we are sorry we, I mean I, will get you the paper filled and signed!

So I rushed back into the office, and told the leader about what happened, he said, what’s wrong with you people! I trust you and you do this?.. the problem is I already told that bastard to fill it but he didn’t!, so I took another paper, FILL IT myself and signed it from our leader and stamped it, took it to that asshole waiting in the security building.

When I reached there, now the funny part, he started screaming, the leader should know, he knows that he should fill it before signing it and etc.. of course that lamer is trying to defend himself in front of the officer, I told him to shut the fuck up until we finish.

The amazing shit is, that this dude was working for the past 6 years and he knows jack shit about security. Well after they issued his stupid temp. gate pass, we went back to the office, everyone minded his own business.

After a while I had a small question, and since his office is in front of mine I asked him, and what he replied… am busy, go talk to someone else….

Oh My God… After what I did to you today, you fucking reply to me like that? How Dare you! I went crazy and in a split of a second my shoes were going to hit his fucking head, but I calmed myself and went outside, I swear to god, if am not respecting his age, I would have smacked his fucking face with my fucking shoes.

After this all my smile just went to the toilet, I started my angry face early today, fucking wasting my time and effort on fucking lame assholes, remind me to NEVER do anything to anyone! Fucking no one deserve anything from me!

Booo....

Goddamn you guys, i did this just because no one is bloging anymore... so i will write.

Not long time ago i broke up with my fiance, and i had tons of money to spare, so i went berserk and started buying stuff, stuff that includes HD TV/ PS3 / Extra DDR2 Rams / Gifts / and so on.

I basically wasted around 1000KD, Hell yah!

Now that i got the Japanese version of the PS3, which i had doubts about since people complained that the JP PS3 censors some blood and stuff. I, as always, hated myself for buying the JP PS3, and started complaining as well. typical... one of my friends decided to give me a game to check if there is blood or not, that game is the same one that people said it got censored, i tried it and there were blood every where, so to who ever saying that bullshit, FUCKING SHUT YOUR MOUTH! or i'll stick my feet in it. Fucking retards.

So i got the darkness on PS3. read all the reviews and all, thought its the game that will break all graphical barriers (PS3), BUT, that game has absolutly NO AA and NO AS what so ever, the graphics is NOT really amazing, but the story and the directing is great, its a good game when it comes to story. But am so disappointed with the graphics, after playing Lost Planet on the PC, which has forced AA and AS also High reso Textures, The Darkness seemed crap compare to Lost Planet.

I have no Idea why they bother to make such a game on the PS3, you probably know that these kinda games are meant for the PC, FPS is meant for the PC, am having hard time playing with the goddamn controller, if i had a mouse and keyboard, this would be a breeze.

I tried Lost planet on the Xbox360, I HATED every goddamn second of it, but when i got it on the PC, i enjoyed every second, the mouse and keyboard really make a difference for me, i am trying so hard to change that fact, but it aint working it seem, now i decided to go all the way console and not upgrade the PC at all.

That decision was stupid. i made an excel sheet (YAH AM BORED AT WORK) with the list of games that are going to be released soon and on what platform, i noticed that most of the games am expecting are PC, and only a few PS3, about the xbox360? am expecting Fable 2 only. So am going soon to upgrade the PC, but it all depends on the next game, Crysis ofcourse, if that game runs fine on me PC, then to hell with upgrading, if not, then i will HAVE too, sorry, i must..

Bloging2?

Okay, its now 11AM, am at work, doing nothing at all since my training finished like 3 days ago, I wonder why the supervisor gave me 1 whole week in a division that even its team leader said that it only takes 2-3 days to finish, am kinda thinking, this was because the supervisor doesn’t want me to be with the new girl employee?

I honestly don’t know why he would do such a thing, I mean its true that I wont feel comfortable with her running around me and all, but that doesn’t mean to keep me here 3 days in the week doing nothing but sitting still and eating weird cheese sandwiches.

Anyway only thing I would ask at this moment is to finish up all the hours and go home where I can start playing a game or watching some anime, I would go to the gym since I already paid money to them for a whole month yet I only attended 1 week, its boring there, and I don’t feel happy being in that gym, its full with people who loves to look and talk crap, and whenever I tried to use some gym equipment, they look at me like a thief or something, curse them and curse their gym I aint going there.

And what am doing there anyway? Am just running and using the bicycle, its not really much to make me go there with excitement, I’d rather stay home watch anime or play a game or just listen to music.

Speaking of anime, there are a lot of cool anime these days, I’ll name some that really interest me.

- Black Lagoon Second Barrage
- One Piece
- Kekkaishi
- Bleach
- Hell girl Second season
- Ghost Hunt

There are more but I don’t remember since they are a lot of anime. But to be honest, Black Lagoon, One Piece and Hell girl are the first on my list whenever they are released, they are freaking amazing and you wont get bored of them at all, Bleach is getting dull with the current filler and how they kill each evil character so fast, Kekkaishi still needs more time to figure out if its worth it or not, Ghost hunt is Okay, but not COOL, I think I like the girl in it that’s why am watching it :D.

Games are there incase of no anime, so far I got a lot of games to play, yet I don’t feel like it, Splinter Cell Double Agent for example, that game is kinda slow, and I don’t feel like wasting my day on it, WarHammer Mark of Chaos is good, but it’s a strategy, therefore takes a lot of time, same goes with Company of Heroes, am sick of WorldWar II games, I mean Call of Duty 2 and Medal of Honor Pacific Assault were enough, now you bringing me a Strategy game with the EXACT same plot as CoD2? I don’t think so, it has great graphics but you will get bored repeating the same stuff but in a different angle, the only game that didn’t felt bored which executing the same idea from a different view is RENEGADE, that game was awesome! I wish they make Renegade 2, I would definitely play it!.

There is Total War 2, Stubbs the zombie, Oblivion, ha, Oblivion is impossible to play, that game kills my PC to run and its kinda dull to play too, I would rather play that style in an FPS fast paced game like Dark Messiah, not a get you class and get your armor and talk to every person in the game to finish type ( RPG ) beside, the animation is crap, good environment though, Total War 2 is great! But there is a problem with my freaking PC when running this game, whenever I use the keyboard it starts the console and then shuts off the sound, I press the keyboard buttons randomly and it does the same but restarts the sound, I haven’t yet tried to search for a fix since I don’t have time really.

My freaking brother haven’t yet send my ATI Crossfire, arg, I want that baby so bad, I can kill someone, oh 11:15 , yay 15 minutes off, /sigh, I’ll eat my cheese now. Look forward for more boring articles :P.

Bloging?

Hey! its been a year since i last bloged, i lost interest in blogging since i had no fun doing so, but am bored now and i might start doing so anyway.

the problem starts when you start a new job and get bored during training, most of my training program involves only 2-3 hours of work within the day and the rest is just sitting still doing nothing but crying for something to do, and the damn minutes pass like an hour, and when you get home, the minutes pass like seconds.

i just got my new Computer which i ordered from outside kuwait, not all of the parts but most important parts i did order, since kuwait had nothing at all, its sad when your country isnt really interested in technology, and when they start to bring something, they bring the less powerful item since its cheaper.

so basically its all about economy, why bother bringing Intel Core 2 Extreme processors while people will buy the Intel Core Duo instead because of the intel core 2 price, they never consider the small number of people that really want to get that EXTREME processor, curse them.

well in order to build up my new PC, i ordered the items that are not available in kuwait, Processor / Motherboard / Rams / Video Card. as i like games so much, and care less about kiddie console, i had to order way over the normal spec.

the spec. is as follow

- Intel Core 2 Extreme X6800 Processor 2.98Ghz
- Asus P5W DH Deluxe UPDATED BIOS Motherboard
- Corsier XMS2 6400C DDRII 800 x 2 GB
- ATI X1950 XTX & ATI X1950 Crossfire Edition

i recieved all those thanks to my brother who ordered it for me except the crossfire which had late production date, but my brother has it and he is in the process of sending it " he is taking his time goddamn it! " . Other items i got from kuwait which, if you may, WAY out of specs. i dont know if people think that this PC is way too much, but hey, i saved all my sallary from my study in the UK to get this PC, i will say the price at the end.

- Western Digital 10,000 RPM 80GB HardDisk ( GAMES )
- MaXtor 7,200 RPM 500GB HardDisk ( movies/ Anime / Iso's )
- MaXtor 7,200 RPM 80GB HardDisk ( Windows XP/Vista )
- SoundBlaster X-Fi FATAL1TY PCI
- DVD-WR / DVD-Reader

you think thats too much for games and anime? well for anime yah, but for games i dont believe so.

i ran Oblivion on that PC, gave me good framerate and all, but sadly the game sucked, it has a good story line and all but the character designe and the animation is totally off the charts, that game had good potential but it lost it all because of its bad animation, other games i ran on that machine is Call of Juarez, that game has EXCELLENT graphics, and i enjoyed every bit of it, physics/graphics/storyline, it was a good game, compare to GUN, one of the games i ordered which had bad score from gamespot is Dark Messiah of Might and Magic, that game is really nice to play, i have no idea what went wrong with gamespot, its true it had some problems, come on, a game is not a game without any bugs and glitches no?

that game gave me a good feeling on how to use Swords/daggers in a First Person Shooter game, because usually all first person shooter games are using guns and you actually dont have enough time to melee your enemy alot, but that game gave me a good experiance, storywise is nice, though its a bit dull, but you will get the idea.

Anyway, am gonna stop now since my 2hours limited internet connection going to end soon, GIVE ME MORE TIME!, PC ESTIMATED COSTS is 1600 KD

Blogging? because am bored!